How life can easily test you.
I’ve been worked on to the limits the past two years plus am just learning to accept it all plus try to flow through it. I’ve lost so much in my life the past two years plus I am also far away from my tribe back in the States. Being on my own plus going through this is not an easy thing, even though I suppose if I can pull through it I will learn something from it plus be a stronger man with more character. I just don’t want to become jaded like my heating plus cooling rep buddy became from going through a bunch of losses too. You can become insanely bitter plus resentful when you don’t accept loss plus end up going that path as you grow older, which is not the direction I want to head in life. Residential heating as well as A/C system work is still knocking at my door today as I try to do my work while standing beside my little climate controlled unit next to my bed in my office. My buddy was supposed to visit me even though I had to cancel with him because I did not want to get him sick. I suppose calling mom back property plus hearing his fireplace crackling while we talk will help comfort me plus help me salvage faster. Mom is the main man I miss living overseas, almost as if the child in me is yearning for his mom to hold him. She is a heating specialist plus I suppose I miss him because he is the last man I have left close to me in my family.